Before I quit, Or leave for a long while, I would like you to take the time to at least read lightly through my ranting. It will mean alot to me. If you reply, It'd mean even more-- Even if it's an insult.

I really need to rant right now, and my journal isn't going to cut it. I also want to rant on something someone can reply to and tell me how much of a useless, talent-less, idiot I am.

So, After getting yelled at by some "friends" and other things, and the fact that I feel totally alone. I open FireFox to go to the one place I actually feel wanted/needed in, The one place where I feel like I actually have TALENT that people enjoy. Well, I've been proved somewhat wrong. Don't get me wrong, but I did notice that people actually liked, viewed, and FAV'd my work. One of my BEST works (Hold On Tight) had even over 1,000 views! Getting the message that that work did so was the BEST feeling ever. I actually felt like I had something

I notice I have about 4 Notes. I figured it was someone accidentally clicking more than once, or something. I go to look, and the minute I see the titles of the notes I felt something stab my heart. I read each of them and found out about, almost 70% of my Photoshop CS2 fanart signatures and avatars were deleted. Okay, I read the reasons why, the whole plagiarism crap. And I've read the policies and crap, and I even double checked to see if I was doing everything right. And I was, I credited where I got the images, brushes, and bases. Apparently that wasn't enough. So I read the list of the works that got deleted. 60 of my works are gone from my DeviantART, And only 20 of those are probably still available even on my own computer. What hurt me most, was most of the works that actually got deleted were some of my BEST fanart signatures and avatars yet. (Including Hold Me Tight which will be submitted into my SheezyART eventually, Or my own website if I get around to it.).

A small question, Can someone please inform me as to why there is an Anime section under Wallpapers yet when I submit Anime-related Wallpapers they get deleted for "Plagiarism" when the credit is right there in the Description box?

I really don't quite get why 60 of my works were deleted when I had credited it. And don't give me that "It's because we're not allowed to submit pictures that aren't ours". I did well adding brushes, and making them useable on desktops, forums, Messangers, and everything. I worked 30 minutes each few days, months just to make something for people to use, to enjoy looking at. For them to be all "Hey, they did that with that picture! That's neat!" or to give me helpful advice on a different effect I should use. I even credited honestly, and apparently DeviantART didn't like my efforts. Even my Pixel works were deleted, and I worked HOURS on those too. And infact, this was the only place I had them in. So they're gone for good. Thanks alot. (:

I did almost the same thing as the PhotoManipulaters do with the stocks, and random pictures. I took an image, edited it, Perhaps changed the color-- Added different effects on, And gave credit as to where I got the images. One of my works I turn to You [NOTE: This is now deleted, After I have pointed that out/NOTE] was NOT deleted. However, contains an image I had manipulated, and gave credit on. (As I have on all my other works which have been masacred.)

So what is it? Pictures have to be real life images to not be deleted? Or is it just that Anime screencaps, and other works aren't... Allowed to be manipulated on? I'm not sure...

But what I do know.. Is that this was an open chance to get away from this place, and take a break. Even though this place had never cause me stress and tears up until today. I will be visiting this page less and less, Maybe once a week at most. If you would like to talk to me please add me to AIM (_DKuroChi) or MSN (_{hoshiakari1337@hotmail.com}). I might stop by, if I ever finish a website, or have any "news" and make a jornal about it, or possibly reply to random comments I get.

However, If I do sometime come back, I will stick to submitting sketches, drawings, and MAYBE tablet arts (That is a maybe, Seeing how those may break a policy somehow.), Also some writings, but then again that might break some rules.

I'm sorry if anyone had the time to read over my horrible rant on my journal, I had JUST finished reading the notes, and I was in RAGE.

I am now paranoid, as all this time I've thought I was doing something good. But, then again.. Have I ever done anything good, or perfect? I think not.

I conclude this dumb, rant, seeing how I'm finally calming down, and becoming more and more upset rather than pissed as hell. But, Before I finish filling the keywords, and clicking submit. I would like to ask one thing...

Why didn't anyone tell me what I was doing? Instead of Faving, Commenting on how nice and pretty it was? If I was warned, I would've at least saved some of the works that are now, truely, gone...